Do you hate me for being sad? Should I be hated because I think nothing but sad thoughts for majority of the day? My parents literally neglect my mental health, the last time I went to therapy for the first time my dad forced me to sit down and talk with him about. It's so uncomfortable because he scares me. He even went as far as to call me stupid for cutting myself, but that was a while ago and I switched up to where I now inflict harm.

I was sent to the ER 2 weeks ago because my mom found me cutting, I had to practically beg her not to tell dad since he wasn't gonna be home for the entire week. I stayed there for a full 24 hours before they sent me home. They strongly suggested that my mom get me into therapy again. Guess what? She has yet to do so, so I feel like she doesn't care about my mental state either.

I can't wait to get out of this hellhole, I just want to be in a cheap apartment working full time as a chef with my girlfriend. I can start my medical process there, away and safe from my parents. I never want to speak with them again, especially my dad.